No One is Exempt
“The Lord brings death and makes alive; he brings down to the grave and raises up. The Lord sends poverty and wealth; he humbles and he exalts.” 1 Sam 2:6-7 (NIV)
It is so damn hard not to compare my life to others. Social media has more than enough reminders of how I don’t measure up to some other folks my age. From the outside looking in, it seems like I might actually be considered a loser in most circles. I’m 26 years old and faced with the reality that if I don’t get a job within the next 6 weeks, I will be moving back into my parent’s house.
In the last 6 months, I’ve shifted my focus back and forth between feeling sorry about my losses and being inspired by my gains. Although I’ve lost money and a title, God has miraculously held me down this entire time. When I didn’t know how I would pay for groceries, freelance opportunities came through and on days when I felt alone, I was comforted by my friends and family.
I’ve learned that no one is exempt from suffering. It’s necessary to be tested, otherwise, there would be no way of knowing where we stood spiritually. I spent so much time avoiding self-realization, that God had to stop me in my tracks by removing my earthly crutches. Sometimes I wonder what life would have been like had I not been tested; as long as I had a job, an apartment and a boyfriend who adored me, would I have ever felt as though I needed God? So long as everything in my life was perfect, would I be as motivated to pray?
Fortunately, it didn’t take losing everything to learn I’m blessed because I’m God’s child and not due to my own strength. Despite my many bad days, I’m thankful for my storms. I know my value, I’m exploring my passions and revealing my hidden truths. I’m at peace because now I can confidently say that through my suffering, I know the heart of Jesus and because of that, I wouldn’t have it any other way.